My blog up until now has been filled with posts about weight loss, negative past experiences as a result of being over weight and writing clouded by the mind-frame that we MUST be slim to be happy, accepted and successful. it has taken me32 years, 2 failed and potentially life threatening gastric bands and falling … Continue reading A new beginning…
As I sit in a coffee shop, happily sipping my full fat latte and tucking into a delicious slice of chocolate cake, I over hear a woman at the counter say to the barrista, “Can I have skinny milk please, I’ve already had a chocolate bar today so I need to make up for it.” … Continue reading What I learn about Women and Weight Whilst People Watching.
I am putting on weight. Since having my band loosened at accident and emergency recently, I have been able to eat pretty much what I want and have only thrown up twice, which is, if you know me, extremely rare. It is a strange juxtaposition. The happiness eating again brings, tinged with the fear of … Continue reading Body Positivity, Please Don’t Dessert Me.
This is my tummy. The tummy that I once hated. The tummy that I subjected to two operations. The tummy that I butchered with 12 incisions. I am not going to lie and say I love it BUT I am learning to embrace it for what it is. It is smaller than it used to … Continue reading Tammy and Her Tummy
This is me yesterday, as you can hopefully see, in the bath. (Actual photo of myself in the bath taken down) I look at wonder and happiness at this photo because not only am I ok with having my photograph taken, I am in the bath, naked! And not only that but I am now … Continue reading This is me, now, happy…but for how long?
As I stare into the toilet bowl, retching for perhaps the fifthtieth time today, I wonder if all this is worth it. It is 2012, I had my gastric band fitted on the 30th of December 2011. What's annoying about a gastric band is it doesn't just work straight away and, if you're anything like … Continue reading The Vomit Chronicles.